She did it so i'm going tooooo

Kaite Posted so now i must! I got a PT job at a really cool place and i might have another one so that is cool! My Moms b-day, Dan's moms b-day, & Dan's b-day are all going on sooon! and i am poor and it's whatever.....oh and i go to buy gifts and i keep wanting to buy things for Katie.....bahahahaaaaa......thats how crazy i am....i think i like buying stuff for her b/c she likes neat stuff and b/c she's cute....what can i say!? Ok well i'm done for now....peace out

this is so random you might puke

Well 1st things 1st yes i am half mexican. No you can't really tell other then my last name unless you are really trying to tell. No i don't think it's a bad thing UNTIL Either of these things happen (which they always do):

A. You assume i speak spanish so you start rambling off spanish talk all rambo style thinking that i'm picking up what you are laying down. indeed i am not i don't speak spanish.

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B. You assume (theres that word again) that i am not from the USA. Now this is a rare occasion but thinking that b/c i have a hispanic last name that i am fresh off the boat / boarder....how sick is that? Really come on! For all you know i married a mexican and thats why i have that name or heres the truth like many youth today i don't have a father and while yes i carry his last name he was never in my life so i don't really consider myself that mexican. but thanks for playing the what race are you game.

Now who ever said assuming makes an ass out of you and me lies cause when you do this shit i don't feel like an ass....i just know your one.

we move on to something that has bothered me a long time and maybe this is my lazy bitch side coming out i don't know anyways.....if car makers can produce a car with a "auto" window that goes all the way down...why can't they make the thing go all the way up to? why can i push the button once and not hold and it goes all the way down but i have hold it for it to go all the way up.

and on that note why only make one window auto? if i'm the driver and the whole point of making my window auto is to keep me more focused on the road then why not make all my controls for the windows auto? so stupid!!

Down south why is it perfectly normal for you to have 3 kids but not actually be raising any of them not only that but all their dads are different and not in this country anymore.....and you still walk around and saying you have three kids.......yeah no you don't you gave one up for adoption not that i am knocking you for that but you gave one up...not your kid anymore.....and you have someone else raising the other two.....yeah totally not your kids anymore.....just cause you birthed them doesn't make you a parent.....raising them....being there for them that makes you a parent but drinking it up and sleeping with as many different men as you can....no that does not really make you such a good parent!

(mind you all these things i am saying are harsh sure but i just had a bad day and this is my way of venting so get over it!)

Oh and one last thing.....why is it shocking that at 25 i don't have kids? why is everyone always so shocked that i don't have a kid yet? i'm not married people......i may not have kept all my premarital promises but i ain't trying to birth no babies.....Knock on WOOD!! Peace out

(and yeah i posted this on all my blogs today)

before i fall away again

here are some photos

Sit down i'm exploding.

OK so if i read, see, hear, talk, or know about one more person who quit their GOD awful job to do what they love and now make lots of money have a uber house that they re-built to suit them. I am going to SCREAM!! I am going to personally hunt them down and make them SHARE!! I also don't want to hear about people that were already rich to begin with and now make EVEN more MONEY doing something really stupid like gluing shells onto anything they can find! HOW is that a talent? it's not! I hate every thing right now. i especially hate people that have everything and can do whatever they want but do something REALLY stupid that i could do with one hand behind my back and they are making loads of money off of it!!!!!

I can't even make money doing what normal people consider a talent! i can't stand people who are someones daughter/son and got a really good job just based on that. I have known for so long that it's not what you can do but who you know. it can also be not what you can do but who you can do but lets not go there. anyways i have skills, i have them growing out of my butt....BUT can i get anyone to see that NO! all i can do is sit here hoping that someone anyone takes notice of my skills. and not those jacka$$es that want you to try and sucker old people into buying more health care....you can keep those people!

And i swear if my boyfriend tries to get me to work some hokey poky job one more time that would not even hire me anyway i am going to spit on him....or like i was explaining to my mom i am going to say OK i get to stab you three times....and not like three times in a row....and not even three times right now..... NO i get to stab you three times when ever....where ever....and how ever i feel like it.

OK thank you for joining me in my dark days.

Depressed

I am depressed about everything. I don't have a job so i don't have money so i can't pay my bills, so i'm not getting out of debt, so i'm not paying back people i owe money to, so i'm no where near paying back my mom, so she is unemployed and not making any money, so i can't even give her a little money to help her out, so then i couldn't buy anyone a neat christmas present, so i totally couldn't buy my mom anything so now i feel like a jackass and all i want to do is kill myself. Have a nice evening.

Remember?!

Dig back in the memory and remember when i was talking about my new obsession? well i have pictures to show you......now I'll tell you my obsession is mini canvases. There i said it! these two are for some one and while i am done painting them i am not done with them fully i have some things to add and a frame to find.....but i suspect they will like them once I'm done....maybe! while these are not the full minis that i saw at the art place they were cheaper and right now cheaper is all a girl can ask for! so i hope you enjoy my obsession as much as i have....PS the photo quality is not my fault! k i <3 Katie Bye!

There is no pain you are........

Good day. i have been applying my butt off for jobs and still nothing! I also have been baking lots of cookies.....but there isn't lots of people to give them to this year........so i'll have to bake some more in January when i return to PA. I am annoyed by lots of things lately not having a job is sort of at the bottom of the list.......being poor however is pretty high up there! but God has a funny way of getting you to remember things about yourself just little things to help you make it through another week.......what you might ask well i'll tell you. I am applying for this one job and it requires three letters of referance......i have gotten two of them so far and the things the people said about me reminded me that i am good at something.....Fooling people into thinking i'm great! Just kidding i'm good at work....when i am working......that was the little boost i needed.....well as always i LOVE Katie.....